The Rabbit Hole

the mask

we went too fast

passionate love, fueled by the past

i tried to resist

but you won at last

where are we now?

fucking with another

someone not quite you

just being used as a cover 

i’ve used a few 

i hope i can discover

my heart once again 

to love another 

one thats a ten 

you took it from me

you took it all 

i took you too

so we both could fall

into a hole, black as night

that night that we 

had that fight

your hands on me, my hands on you

now i do things out of spite

try to get your attention 

trying to make you mad

it usually works

but makes me pathetic, and makes you sad 

why we do this to eachother

I’m just dying to be honest

i can’t love another 

but i don’t want the violence

I don’t want to suffer 

HYFR.

But I was no angel, and we never waited
You took me for sushi, I wanted to fuck
So we took it to go, told them don’t even plate it
And we never talk too much after you blew up
Just only ‘hello’ or ‘happy belated’
And you text me and told me you made it
And that’s when I text you and told you I prayed it
And that’s when you text me and told me you love me
And right after texting, told me you’re faded

Even though it’s fucked up, boy I’m still fucking wit ya
Damn, is it the fall
Time for me to revisit the past
It’s men to call
There’s albums to drop, there’s liquor involved
There’s stories to tell, we been through it all
Interviews are like confessions
-DRAKE 

horoscopes

Gemini: Leave most of your adult self at home — instead, channel youthful energy and enthusiasm. Make no assumptions and allow for impulse. The approach is adventure or bust, so loosen the reins on any expectations of who you think you should be.

…so it this telling me I can through responsibility to the wind & hit the beach today!?! 

THE TRUTH.

JoJo – Marvin’s Room 

I have been up three days
Adderall and redbull
This call is a mistake
There’s something strong in this water bottle
I hear you got a new chick
But that’s a little Barbie doll
I feel so pathetic
But you still haven’t heard it all

Fuck that new girl that you like so bad
She’s not crazy like me I bet you like that
I said fuck that new girl that’s been in your bed
And when you’re in her I know I’m in your head
I’m just saying you can do better
Always turned you out every time we were together
Once you had the best you can’t do better
Baby I’m the best so you can’t do better

I ran into your homeboys
They’re all fucking idiots
You’re not even my boyfriend
But you’re tripping because I’m in the club
Yeah that’s right I’m dancing
And something cool is in my cup
I’ma send a sexy picture
To remind you what you’ve given up

Fuck that new girl that you like so bad
She’s not crazy like me I bet you like that
I said fuck that new girl that’s been in your bed
And when you’re in her I know I’m in your head
I mean, I’m just saying you can do better
Always turned you out every time we were together
Once you had the best boy, you can’t do better
Baby I’m the best so you can’t do better

i know

that 2 wrongs don’t make a right. but it would feel SO good to take matters into my own hands for a change. 

yes, no. maybe so?

yes, I miss you. no, I don’t want you back.

yes, I’m straight. yes, I check out other girls.

yes, I have tattoos & piercings. no, I’m not irresponsible or untrustworthy. 

yes, I’m a cheerleader. no, I’m not stupid.

yes, I drink alcohol. no, I’m not an alcoholic. 

yes, I believe in love. no, I don’t want to get married. 

tough enough

God never gives us more than he knows we can handle. That’s how I know I am destined for greatness- because He sure did lay it on thick this year. I went through some pretty hellish ordeals, and still came out the other end with a smile on my face. Every year will continue to get harder, because I know He is preparing me for whats to come after college…for when I save the world…

i knew it!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG that skanky biatch!! I frickin knew it! Oh she’s gonna get it now, that beezy didn’t know what she got herself into! Ah gheez its about to get cray cray 

more and more!

seeing these new couples popping up! i swear I’ve seen at least a handful of guys I’ve hooked up with- get in ‘relationships’ over the last week or two. myself included. ahhh…its the holiday season that makes us a bunch of sappy hopeless romantics. I’m curious to see how many of these last beyond valentines day. =P

this

will never last. we met at a club- red flag #1. we’ve known each other like 2 months- red flag #2. he’s NOT a libra- red flag #3. hahahaha oh fuck. oh well. i like him so we’ll see where it goes